Friday, October 09, 2009

hey world

i'm so excited right now you guys!

i still don't have a job! i spose i should get one soon. srsly though i am probably the busiest person i know who doesn't have one :0

i have a music project-y thing on the boiler right now which has been really challenging and fun

i am loving sunset events SICK. the people are pretty rad. putting together events is such a complex and exciting and rewarding thing, i think?! one movement for music festival is next weekend and i'm PSYCHED

i am into drawing right now! i have always thought of myself as "HOPELESS AT ART" and i not really a visual person but i have been having a great old time doing some sketching. i like drawing animals best. my aim is to get good enough for drawing so i can draw a picture of... no i'm gonna keep it a secret. i bought some nice pencils and a kneadable eraser today, normally i just sketch with artline 0.4.

my other new fascination is: BENTO BOXES. all i want to eat is japanese food, but i want to learn to make some tasty tidbits instead of buying stale teriyaki tofu all the friggin' time!

okay that's probably all woooOOOOOO
love caro

Tuesday, September 29, 2009

love of to-do lists

hey internet,

you haven't heard much from me lately, i guess.

i've been doing a lot of things though.

one of the big things is that i've been getting really into TO DO LISTS. i've always used them on-and-off in the past, but i think i'm finally learning how to use them effectively.

i made myself a hipster pda and have clipped it to the front of a cheap diary. in the morning and the evening i go through and strike off the things i have done and update it with more things to do. it's working really well. i get so much pleasure from striking things off the list. i've also learnt to break tasks down into their components instead of being all like "oh god today i have to PREPARE UNI APPLICATION where do i even BEGIN"

of course, this might all fall apart when i actually get really busy.

i've written two short stories in the last week or two. not really short stories so much as "creative non-fiction," i guess. it's good to write lots. i've even been drawing a bit, although drawing isn't really something i am good at. i feel like i should be trying to extend creativity into as many corners of my life as i can.

i've been trying to write music, like always. it's going so-so.

i'm doing volunteer work at sunset events. event management interests me. admittedly that is largely because i want to be able to manage myself.

i've applied for uni next year. i feel weird about it. i really want to study, but there's only one course i'm really interested in right now, and i'm not at all sure i'll get into it.

there are many other plans going down too. it feels really really good!

ummmm i just felt like updating and now i have yeeeeeah
love caro

Thursday, August 20, 2009


i'm back and i'm so happy to be back. in bunbury at the moment and trying to write music. also to record it, which depresses me. i don't have a clue what i'm doing and everything sounds so shitty. shouldn't lo-fi recording (as in "a bit like the mountain goats" rather than as in "science") be easy? i can't really record when i'm in perth, either, because i don't have a decent computer and i'm homeless - well, living at m.m.'s, anyway, so i don't really have a quiet space of my own. someone help me. i have a pretty big collection of songs now and i don't know what to do with any of them.

i don't want to get a job because i need time to learn about this stuff!

the other night m.m. said "hey so uhhhhh B and T want to apply for this amazing house. just round the corner on W street. it's huge and awesome and has like five bedrooms, and they wanted to know if you wanted to move in with us all. you could have a room to yourself, or maybe you could share a room with me if you wanted"

it was pretty exciting and also romantic! so then we went and looked at the house. ït was so so good and i wanted to live there so bad. but then we told B that i was "in" and she got all excited and called the real estate agent who said they'd already had two applicants. heartbreaking. even though it hadn't occurred to me as a possibility a couple of weeks ago, now all i want to do is live in a big mt lawley house with m.m. and his housemates and it seems like nothing else will ever make me happy. although obviously it will.

but jobhunting is so boring that i can't bring myself to househunt as well, not yet.

ANYWAY! the reason i am here was to note down a song i wrote in buenos aires. i wrote a couple there but i like this best. i'm pleased with the lyrics, except the second verse, and possibly the third* (well i'm pleased with some of the lyrics), and it's fun to play although i haven't really worked out where to pause for breath yet. TOO MANY WORDS CAROLINE. boy do i like writing words.

well, i wrote out my songs like you told me to in february
knowing you, you're so contrary you'll just throw them out
and i wrote out my sins: i disguised them in a letter
still, i don't feel that much better just for having put them down

you said we'd done well passing through all this frustration
and deserved a celebration: yes, we'd earnt it, had we not?
so you opened up the door, rolled the rug up from the floor
and then you called our friends and asked them, what the hell you waiting for?

and the sheep dressed like wolves and the wolves dressed like flowers
and the clock announced the hour from its corner in the hall
and the chimes came so fast that it felt like time was flying
so we danced like we would die should ever morning come to call

i once loved wolves, you know, and then i came to fear them
when i saw the light that shines inside their jaws and draws me in, oh lord
i once loved wolves, it's true: i thought that you were one of them
but though i feared those paws of yours you took my hand and took me in
i once loved wolves before i'd touched your face and paced your floor
and though i was so scared back then, these days i'm sure
and if i loved those wolves, please know that i was younger then
no connessieur of wolves nor men

well i wrote out my vows and i wrote you in my story
though i know that kind of glory doesn't interest you much now
and your hair's turning grey but it looks so good that way
it makes me wish i had the goodness that would make you want to stay.

yes you look so good that way
it makes me wish i had the goodness that would make you want to stay.

*oh yeah. the line "no connessieur of wolves nor men". too much? in my head it is weightless and whimsical, but i'm worried it comes across as earnest and pained.

Wednesday, August 05, 2009

things that fly

today we went to the zoo. i like the zoo on a bleak day, it is nicely gothic.

i wish i could drawwwwww!

does anyone have a typewriter they would like to give me? your answer is: YES

Saturday, August 01, 2009

muy extraño

one sort of weird thing that has happened lately is that i'm interested in clothes again. i got so bored and angry with fashion before i left and sort of stopped caring about what i wore. i've never been a very fashionable person anyway but i still enjoyed playing with clothes, it was sort of an easy creative outlet when i didn't have the energy to write words or play guitar.

but now that i have been deprived of decent outfits for six months i am all of a sudden obsessed with clothes. it's very strange. i can't wait to get back to my wardrobe and have the opportunity to play with my clothes again! i can't stop thinking about colours and textures and shapes.

i would like to wear less boring clothes and include more colour and more items of good quality in my wardrobe, i think.

i am pretty obsessed with:

-a-line skirts that sit above the knee.
-pretty sleeves elesticised above the elbow that look like something juliet would have worn.
-pink (this is deeply unusual), baby blue (somewhat unusual), red and black (not unusual)
-zippers and tartan.
-oversized bows.
-things that look like they should be worn to a dancing class.
-patterned tights (ALWAYS).
-high-collared coats.
-knotted and plaited stretch fabrics.
-fine tulle.
-black lace-up boots.
-thick colourful eyeshadow.
-braiding my hair across the forehead.
-elbow-length gloves.
-rainbow tie-dye with black.
-bodysuits & leotards (unfortunately only AA seem to stock them, the big jerks).

man the only problem with thinking about clothes a lot is that it makes me feel guilty. i'm not really sure why it should be a less worthy creative outlet than, say, painting. i guess because there is more money involved. ahhh.

Monday, July 27, 2009


things i have been thinking about, and inspired by, lately:

birds of paradise
humus and tzatziki and falafel
places to live
onesie swimsuits
boxer boots
notebooks with squared paper
making jewellery
enormous trees with dangly bits
cage skirts
cage dresses

(for my own reference alright)

mancora is brilliant! it feels more like a holiday than the rest of our holiday put together.

home soon!

Wednesday, June 24, 2009

more to-do lists

lately, when i'm waiting for something (which happens reasonably often when you travel), i have been making lists of things i want to do. they are pretty far-reaching lists, but i figure that if i keep track, maybe i will be more effective at achieving them? and it's always nice to strike things off a list. so for now, here are some books i want to get down with.

tolstoy - anna karenina
william golding - the inheritors (i am reading this at the moment), lord of the flies
gabriel garcia marquez - love in the time of cholera, one hundred years of solitude
dostoevsky - notes from underground, crime and punishment
steinbeck - the grapes of wrath, of mice and men, the red pony
hemingway - the old man and the sea, for whom the bell tolls
hunter s. thompson - fear and loathing in las vegas
tim winton - cloud street
peter carey - oscar and lucinda
bukowski - factotum
james baldwin - giovanni's room
jay mcirney - bright lights big city
jonathan safran foer - everything is illuminated
d.h. lawrence - sons and lovers
yann martel - the life of pi
salman rushdie - fury, the satanic verses, midnight's children
nabokov - pale fire
henry miller - tropic of capricorn, tropic of cancer
toni morrison - beloved